Closet dude, Iām not pissing at all. I was adding to the convo. Somebodyā¦ I donāt recall the username, spoke of drinking a 12-pack every night and never missing a day of work. I thought everyone posting should hear my point of view on drinking and having things. The majority of folks equate making it with owning things like houses, cars and fat stacks in the mattress. I miss-typed that I get a disability check because of mental issues, I get a check, a whopping 780 bucks because I have Parkinsonās like symptoms, I can barely feed myself. I have gotten a check for the last 3 years, Iām 58. The judge seen my shakes at the 3rd hearing, it took nine years to get approved. My case for disability claim was HBP, high cholesterol, type 2, insulin-dependent diabetes (70 units morning and night of U500), I have tumors on my adrenal glands that release catecholamines that keeps my BP high af with meds at 210/105, it is inherited, I got it from my mom. Add to that severe OSA, my bi-pap machine is set at 23/19. These medical problems Iāve had since the 3rd grade at the time I was diagnosed. I forgot the mental part, bipolar, OCD and then some, I was diagnosed as a kid with these things before OCD was even a thing. It is a chemical imbalance in the brain, not because I started self-medicating at 14 with cannabis, speed, and libations. I was tossed out of the home at 15 because I smoked weed and my parents believed all the propaganda. They called it tuff love after mom read the book of the same name. they said you want to grow, deal and smoke dope, you think you are an adult because you work a fulltime job and go to high school. get the fuck out of MY house and I did just that. I know drinking is a depressant as shadey can attest to, but Iām grown and i do what I like, you only live once and drinking is my second passion. Iām Irish and Slovakian, Iām a two-fisted drinker and it works for me, thatās all iām saying. I have worked my entire life, fulltime as a care-giver, phlebotomist, lab assistant, hospital housekeeping scrubbing toilets, worked in two different race shops building engines, sold cars, sold automotive paints and done bodywork. For two years I would draw blood for paternity in child support casesā¦ legal shitā¦ chain of custody, testifying in court. Iāve done lowly work and professional work. I inherited a house and the one Iām in now I cashed out my entire retirement and so did my wife to get into the house we have now. It is my bank. In the 9-years, it took to get a check I lost my 407k kb home after the market fell out and the house was only worth 190k, we lucked out and were able to short sale it. And no it wasnāt a predatory loan, it was a first, 30-year fixed mortgage. Iām not a smuck or an idiot,
Look, I stopped in your thread because I saw a brother in need and I wanted to build you up and tell you that are not alone in these feelings. Went you talk to members youāll find out that for the most part cannabis users are all in the same boat mentally with the depression and anxiety. I can say without weed Iād be doing 25-life, itās been my saving grace as it has been for many people. You just need the right strain!
edit: also it is not tax money it is disability insurance, that I have paid for my entire work life. This check is not a gift. in two years they will retire me and Iāll transferer to Social Security which I also paid for. I wouldnāt go on welfare (TAD) if you paid me. lol
