Man. Look at the size of these Chunky Junky buds.
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I think we all get that way. I’m very depressed today. Not able to do the things I want to.
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The phone line is open…
Just saying brother.
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I feel this and rode the depression wave most of my life.
ADHD + OCD since a kid but the BiPolar 2 diagnosis only happened in my mid-30’s!
TBH this diagnosis was a game changer as I could now have a name of the demon in my heart and work on more appropriate strategies to work on my mental health.
We’re here for you always @MoBilly and if you’re ever having a bad moment go and see your plants, and if you can stick your fingers in some mycorrhizae rich material so you can get that love boost as well!
:hugs
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NO ONE TOLD ME THERE’S A LINE!!!
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That movie was EPIC!!! I’ve probably watched it a dozen times. lol
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I appreciate being included in that group, not sure if I’m all that deserving though. We are all here for each other, some more than others. I remember when I first started my thread, and you asked me if I would mind if an old hillbilly followed my posts. Of course, I invited you with open arms and I’m so glad that you have been a part of it ever since. Everybody has tough times, and that’s what your family here is for. I just love following your thread, even though I don’t post every day, I’m here everyday. And if you don’t mind an Old redneck northerner hanging around I will continue to be here everyday. Take care, Brother.
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Some of my best friends have been just this. lol
You are always welcome around my camp.
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@MoBilly
Glad to be in for the long haul brother
Shit right after getting back on here in 2019 I immediately sent u a dab rig lol
Soon I have another gift for u
A couple weeks brother an I got u
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Just having problems with my knee. Had some tire work done to my wife’s vehicle a couple of days ago and the tire come off. So I had to go get that done yesterday. There was a hill at the tire place. I was trying to go to the restaurant next-door. Hurt my bad knee. Not able to walk around as much today. Getting into it with my mom really bothers me.
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Not no big deal. I think what’s bothering me today is it’s been spring break. My wife took off and I had my son around and now I’m by myself today.
lol
I’m definitely ready for summertime. I went fishing a few times caught one little fish. I’m gonna try to go in the morning and see if I can catch some shell crackers. For some reason, these phones are getting difficult to send messages on.
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Hang in there folks. It’ll be something else tomorrow!
Big ups for getting ahead of the clouds @MoBilly. I’ve drug quite a bit of my gloom here @ times as well. It’s hard to not show it/speak it/relay it when you live it/feel it daily. I don’t apologize for any of it but I do acknowledge it. I can only play the hand I’ve been dealt.
Other than you guys I’ve only told a few folks about my ketamine use to treat some very nasty ruminations. It’s pretty cool to not feel like shat and crash and burn daily from the grief. It’s still there but the ketamine gave me more depth and strength to be able to push the bad aside and remember some of the good. I spent a few hours a few days ago cleaning up his special garden. Not one tear. It was a good talk.
Just puttin it out there in case you know folks who have fought the clouds forever/have been on every SSRI there is and still can’t cope. It’s not a joke. I never thought “tripping” would heal anything 
And then…
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I’m done procrastinating. Time to get a little brush hogging done. I’ll catch you all later.
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This last year has been rough @Pigeonman, mentally and physically. Three back surgeries later. I’m healing in both areas. My time with my plants has been huge! There were so many days I didn’t want to do anything, but once I get the plants addressed, I feel better. Then I might be able to do something else.
My back and related surgeries have caused me to change lanes. I can’t continue functioning the way I had been. I’m still trying to find my lane.
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You got this @crownpoodle and will find your new normal as you keep trudging forward!
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Enjoy reading your thread. You have developed into a Master Gardener. But not quite up to @BigMike55 standards. Lol. Nah Mo. your stuff really looks good.
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I’ve looked into “dosing” to heal. It just hasn’t felt like good timing, but it’s definitely not crossed off my list of options. The SSRI’s have just been a short term solution for me, but I was glad at the time they were available.
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Did i hear my name??
You guys are all in the same world i live in. I have been fighting depression all my life from childhood trauma. Bad trauma. It eats me up. But i get by. I have good days too.
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Im glad i could help you @MoBilly! Thats why i joined OG to learn how to grow and help others! Im always here for anyone if they need anything. You know us goat farmers gotta stick together @MoBilly lol! I dont own the farm but i help my grandma take care of her goats and sheep. I also really enjoy reading your updates! You and these people mentioned make some great viewing content! Haha! Hope everyone is having a great day so far!
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@Hemp your more than welcome to message me anytime and ill do my best to cheer ya up! I know people dont like to reach out for help but plenty of people are here to help
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