She’s still here for the moment. I’m just waiting on my family to set things up on their end.
I have some CBD isolate left and once I get my liquid coconut oil I’ll mix the 2 and at least give her a good CBD dose to stop the pain at the end at the very least.
Now that she’s awake I don’t want her to whimper and shake line she is now. She’s scared and confused. When she hurt her foot and I was handling it once I found it by accident she looked so betrayed. A look of pure confusion and pain. The look in her eyes as I had to move her before she hurt her foot worse. I found it because she hopped off the bed and when she planted herself and started crying I went to her side to see what was up. She looked at her legs and I saw the problem was her hips I thought. I grab her feet to clutch her hip to her torso to then grab her belly and Support her weight to let her walk like she wants to. She hated being picked up and will growl at me if I do. Occasionally she needs to and just let’s me. Anyways I’m grabbing her foot and she’s yelping and crying in agony like I just hurt her bad.at the same time I had to move her no matter what as her butt was pinned under my bedframe as she got stuck after falling too. She slid back after trying to get up. I get her onto the blanket and she’s still looking frozen and when I help her move she loses control over her bowels and luckily it was solid 
she plants herself in the hallway after I help her move and she keeps crying for me. At this point I had to go to the bathroom myself and she was scared without me. When I go to check on her she’s trying to get up and falling repeatedly. I go to help her and I notice her foot she’s been keeping off the ground is swollen now. I feel it and things are not good feeling in the area. Crunchy is a word I’d use, but not squishy. It could be she got a double whammy of hip dysplasia and a broken/fractured ankle and so far it seems so. Her body is giving up before she is and it’s beyond sad to me to see her like this. Just a couple days ago she was having trouble getting up, but despite that she was excited and happy to see me. She could still move, but she just took longer to do it than she did last week when she was still able to jump. This time cannabis is only able to ease her pain. I wish I could make her better with all my heart, but the only thing humane I can do for her is make her pain stop.
If she’s following patterns of cannabis dosing that I need for pain levels I’m going to give her some CBD now though.
If only this could have waited until tomorrow to get bad my mother would be home and she’d be able to get something for her pain that doesn’t have decarbed THC in it. I had to use what I had in hand to stop the pain no matter what. No puking, so that’s a good sign so far. Also a bad sign as I basically gave her a dose that works for my pain and she’s usually my baseline dose for meds we can both take. She’s 25mg CBD before she starts acting like a puppy again. 50mg on bad days. And it seems she may be following my pattern exactly so far. At my worst I was needing about 200-300mg CBD just to ease the pain a little.
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