8/26/25 — Self-Reflection Update (Follow-Up to Fire Quartz Chips in the Mix)
I just dropped that fire quartz update earlier today, about adding crystals into the soil —
not just for structure and biology, but for energy and culture. That update’s still fresh, and already here I am again, smoking rosin, three tincture drops in, music on, and I feel like the universe is connecting the dots even deeper.
That Purple Flamethrower Dragon crystal I wanted? Gone before I could claim it. At first I was mad, because it felt like the one. But sitting here now, I see it differently. On the 30th I’m set to pick up a 40lb amethyst for $350. That’s not just a rock, that’s a centerpiece. It’ll light up my whole room. And the crazy part? I don’t even have the $350 right now, but I know I’ll have it by then. No doubt. Because that’s how frequency works — when you line yourself up with what’s meant for you, it manifests.
It showed me something about how I move. My OCD means I don’t take half steps — I go all in, every time. Back in juvie, I remember reading the Body Sculpting Bible for Men. It hammered in that overtraining ruins the body. Too much strain, not enough rest, and your muscles break down instead of growing. That’s facts for the gym. But when I apply that idea to life purpose, I flip it. In life, overtraining is leverage. It’s the tool that breaks you, remakes you, and forges you stronger.
That’s been my whole path. I overtrained in cannabis. I spent everything, risked everything, put myself through hell — and it gave me leverage. Genetics, grows, art, vision. My whole brand is built on going past the line and not stopping until I come out sharper.
And now I see the difference between wasted energy and focused energy. Last year, I look back at my Amazon orders — just random junk stacking up, money scattered on things that never built me anything. Now? I only buy what’s essential. eBay lights, grow gear, things that actually compound back into value. No fluff, no waste. Same thing in the grow — I just culled a bunch of weak reveg attempts. Plants that couldn’t bounce back strong don’t get to ride with me. Clearing them opened up the space, and now the whole room feels lighter. Spacious, clean, energy flowing. Feng shui maxed out.
And that right there ties back to the crystals. Losing the dragon wasn’t a loss. It was clearing space for the 40lb amethyst — the real centerpiece, the one that’s aligned with me. Just like culling weak plants clears space for the strong ones, just like cutting out wasted money makes room for power moves — life keeps showing me it’s not about clinging to what slips away, it’s about holding open space for what’s actually yours.
Lesson I’m walking with today:
• Overtraining in the gym ruins you.
• Overtraining in your purpose defines you.
• The trick is stripping away the excess, keeping only what feeds the bigger picture, and making sure everything in your ecosystem has the right space to shine.
So yeah, I didn’t get the dragon crystal. But I did get the perspective. And that’s worth more than anything. Because what’s truly mine always lines up when I stay tuned to it.
Because the real power isn’t in what slips away or even what shows up — it’s in how you focus your energy so that everything in your life is placed exactly where it holds the most value.