I’ll say this… it is absolutely painful to watch a loved one go through anything like this… one of the things that helped me incredibly when I lost my mother… was to remember deep down… that they would NOT want us to suffer over them… and it’s best to do what you are doing and reflect on all the times that were the good times and good memories… and to live in a way they would want to see you live… nothing changes the loss… but what we choose to reflect on changes everything… I’m so sorry for your loss brother! My prayers will be with you, and that isn’t just a statement. One love 
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