I also tried Tidal Wave. I think it is an APE cross with something else. The experience wasnāt quite as clean and joyful melding with the universe as pure APE. They say there are cubes and then thereās the Penis Envy family. Plain Penis Envy got me close to the APE experience, but not quite. I also tried a non-penis Envy that opened my psyche up like a can opener. It came on in a way that I wasnāt scared.
All of them relived a lot of my depression for several months.
If anyone chooses this path, please beware. Itās not for those who arenāt mentally prepared. Its not like getting really high. It can mess with your mind if you dont prepare your ego for the potential flood of thoughts. In my personal experience ābad tripsā tend to be a result of going into the experience casually and not preparing your mind.
I consumed mushrooms in my teenage years a few times as a social experience. Now when I use them (every 6 to 18 months) I do it alone in the woods overlooking a lake. The environmental aspects of the experience are critical. I find it distracting to be inside or around electronics.
Itās weird, but so many ppl I know had a strong desire to go home during their first experience and sometimes early during subsequent experiences. My evidence for this is purely anecdotal and I doubt itās universality.