I’m giving her plenty of love and with my new finding earlier she got a pain sized dose of cannabutter. She hurt her foot at one point and after she tried jumping up in the bed earlier her hip dislocated. I started to look at her leg more deeply when I had to start handling it to help her walk. She can’t get up on her own anymore, but when she had to go out every couple hours I help her by supporting her belly and leg at the knee to avoid the ankle area.
She’s asleep on and off, but seeing and hearing her cry out in pain was heartbreaking and I had to find something to help. I go to her and spoil her with love and affection every 30 minutes at least. When she wakes up she whines a little, but then she knocks back out. I wish I didn’t have to bring out my CBN butter to help her, but it’s better than watching her in agony.
After the edibles kicked in
I’ll always love the way she used to give me hugs and kisses when I came home. She’s a big dog and eye level with me on her hind legs. She’s a smart dog who learned by observation rather than training. She’s a visual learner and for so long she thought she had to use her lips to kiss. She’s adorable like that. She seems to understand speech to a degree. Or at least learned what certain things mean. Of I wanted to ask where her stuff was to bring her out I couldn’t even spell it. She learned what O U T meant. Eventually I stopped giving her commands altogether and just started to ask her to quit her shit because she knew better and she’d stop 
She’s like an autistic toddler. Stubborn, but smart despite quirks. Once I stopped trying to control her she became much better behaved. More like a teenager in that respect 
It’s so odd that she can just listen to me when I talk to her rather than a set command.
As sad as it is I know it’s for the best. Last week she had only cosmetic issues and allergies. Everything else she had was managed with cannabis and she didn’t even act like it was a issue anymore. Then this morning she couldn’t stand up anymore.
I can only ease her pain for now and keep her happy and comfortable.
her hips went too and she’s limping when she walks now. I’m keeping her happy and giving her whatever I can that she wants
‘may the force be with you’ 
