@TrichomesToStun I talked to him a bit yesterday, seems to be doing better
Good morning all
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awesome news!
Good morning to you and I hope you are getting better as well!
Weāre all peeling over like over ripe bananas lol.
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Afternoon folks!
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Iām getting better but itās extremely stressful because I have a hard time figuring out what I can do without hurting myself.
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I hear ya. And itās hard to say youāre ānot doing anything todayā I always end up going overboard those days.
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I say this sometimes. And I really mean it when I say it.
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I end up doing nothing but the way i am is, thatās way more stressful than actually doing work
Itās like building up this wall to ignore all your obligations
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I submit that you should choose the obligations which suit you. The dishes in the sink will still be there tomorrow.
Sometimes they should be shirked.
And being bored is a necessary skill I think.
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Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after.
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I donāt do middle ground very well. Itās either all action or all lethargy.
So taking a day for myself is less a choice than a necessity. If I try to be productive on a lethargic day it takes me 5 times longer to perform even simple tasks.
So I wait until Iām better able and more efficient.
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My autistic brain: hey man your plants are dying
Me: right, but thats just the way it is. I have to heal.
My autistic brain: 
My autistic brain, trauma edition: ok sure, just sit there and smoke weed. Here, let me replay the top 5 times you were insulted for being lazy
I mean this is a slight exaggeration but itās hard to overcome my āfeatures.ā Itās a work in progress and I feel like crap right now. I might be repeating myself but yeah, just gonna focus on the light in the tunnel.
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Hard outta likes.
Mmmmmmmm, lethargy. 
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I submit that lethargy + chemdog is the best
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My ex wife had the balls to call me lazy after I worked 2 jobs 16 hours a day for 2 years.
Fuck them all let them think what they like.
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I actually agree. But it takes work to overcome that.
One thing I liked was, like
You know that saying, āliving up to your potentialā and how gifted kids supposedly donāt?
Well, thatās garbage. Iām living up to my potential right now. Thatās my 100%. There isnāt more. Thats like saying, why arenāt you guys at work right now. Why arenāt you squeezing every day for itās full potential. Turns out we are living up to our potential if we are trying.
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I know one or two gifted kids. What constitutes potential depends on values. Im not really money motivated so living up to my potential isnāt monetary.
Being a good person and living a full life of fun and adventures and looking good doing it. Thatās my potential and I am succeeding.
Fuck you 3rd grade Mrs Jones
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Thatās definitely part of what I mean. Itās this mindset that you should be like, sigma grindset millionaire or youāre a bum, that some people seem to have
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This is on purpose. If you are not contributing to the economy then you are bad bad bad. Work hard and you will be rewarded in the next life.
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I know part of it is the whole calvinist idea of value/goodness = productivity
As you mentioned itās actually quite rewarding being a good person foremost instead
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There is something to be said thatās good about hard work.
Iām a half a scholar on happiness and thereās a Hungarian philosopher whose name I can never spell or remember who basically says that happiness comes from flow. Which means being in the moment, doing something youāre good at, solving problems that are not beyond you, reaching attainable goals.
Iāve experienced flow and there might be something to it.
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