A Critical Juncture in My Sleep

Anxiety and stress will cause most anyone to not function well let alone sleep. Prior to all this were you sleeping better, the same or worse? There have been some very good ideas laid out for you to try by members. Please keep in mind things will improve, your health and well-being, Covid and the economy.

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I was sleeping… let’s say normally, as it appears to be what my body likes. About 6 hours, around or after midnight to sleep, 5-6 am to wake up. This has been the case for, maybe a year. Prior I would not fall asleep reliably, but wake up daily regardless. I’d be absolutely exhausted and just… not able to go back to sleep. Currently, that 6hrs is just getting shaved down too tight. I can’t function on the 3-4 hours I sleep, it seems it’s the bare minimum. I get up and go about my day, but I don’t do a lot of things I could, and more importantly I physically and mentally feel like shit.

It will pass, to a point. Humans will always hate each other and do evil; there’s just a part of me that can’t reconcile with that. Regardless, the only way is forward. Last night was so, I was up a bit early.

One thing I will say, previously my sleep disturbances were from inability to fall asleep. Since sort out my sleeping patterns it’s much improved. I don’t spend all that time in my head, you know? Come morning time though, I wake up. I feel like someone woke me up, although there’s no evidence of that… I did record myself, no evidence of snoring last night anyways.

Melatonin will be coming up soon, I have to wait for some cash. Otherwise I’m kind of just living life. I utilize a lot of these things everyday in small ways, so it doesn’t feel a lot different.

But back to melatonin, or more appropriately serotonin. I wonder if I’m not burned out on serotonin. This was something that happened once before- or something, to be honest I don’t remember it very well. I was told about it more aptly. Maybe 4 or 5 years ago. I didn’t realize how involved in you GI tract serotonin is; it could potentially explain disorder is sleep, diet, and emotion. Being winter I get little sunlight and have dairy up long ago for digestive health. So SAD is a reality I face every year. I have blue light to use, I find it sometimes helps a lot and not at all the rest.

How does this relate to what is going on with you?
Wintertime is tough for everyone. Personally I find if I get myself involved in something like a project, reading a book, etc. where I am stimulating my mind, I tend to sleep better than when I don’t, that’s me. You need to break the strut you are in, you’ll find an improvement in your physical and mental well-being.

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For work out ideas, it can be simple body weight stuff in front of the TV. I’ve been doing this since my gym closed last March.

Toe Touches, push ups-flat, incline, decline, deep knee bends, eagle toe touches, crunches, arm lifts with light weights or large soda bottle, leg lifts, etc. I try to walk every day.

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The thing that bothers me most in life is my anxiety that isn’t clearly directed any particular place but is just raw and unforgiving. The second most thing is the world around me. It’s to a point I can’t shut it all out, because I wouldn’t leave my house, or talk to anyone I don’t want to. I don’t know quite how to describe it… I have very few “safe harbors” of people I actually feel comfortable being around. So socializing is always taxing on me, not so much via written words because I can draft and edit my words. But anyways… Society as I know it is largely benign if not good, but there’s a greatly increasing number (so it would seem) of those who are willing to overlook other human beings so that they may succeed more. Greed. Politics. The usual bullshit. I spend my time currently home alone all day, home with family at night. When I do go out now it’s 2-3hrs max, I can’t handle larger crowds anymore. Essentially I feel the world growing hostile… toward me specifically not so much, but I have to endure the results nonetheless… but most of my suffering is purely circumstances, or is my fault. The hard thing there is how am I suppose to do nothing.

I may be making a wrong conclusion; but even the things that are my fault I can seemingly do nothing about. In the sense that I try to nurture myself and bear no fruit for the labor. Often it gets worse because of my actions… The bitter herb itself is a keen example. I found several uses but the price quickly put me under. You could say that sort of made me jaded and resentful. From my perspective at the time anyways; I was given a gift in the darkest hour, only to have it become another nagging burden.
Politics the way it is, lately it’s all anyone fucking talks about. That is what I resent most. The blind hatred politics brings out in people, and everyone claims to want to help; but those who are in a position to do much deliberately do things not only not help but make them worse.
The way I was raised you treat people with the respect you expect from them. That is only good when the party with the upper hand is willing to let it. Instead, time after time, the strong beat down the weak so they are not threatening. Or simply because they can.

That’s about all I care to devote to that, I hope you understand… probably hard to read at this point, so props if you’ve stuck with me this long.

You are right. I certainly need to get into something, but since I can’t really it seems I’m faced with the challenge of being alone, unoccupied. I can’t hide anything then. I feel as though I need to change this. The world around me has made it clear it’s not accommodating, if I want to live in it I have to change. I learned that a while ago, and it remains true. In many ways I’m better than I was, but yet I suffer more now? It’s disheartening and has deeply shook… kind of reality as I know it.

@Comacus Bodyweight use to be my favorite, until I had abdominal surgery a couple years ago. My core hasn’t really recovered, so I have to change how I exercise to not strain too much. This and my diet were some thing I was working over a couple years with doctors about. COVID smashed it. The doctor had one appointment with me this year, and regrettably I cancelled it. Because the idea of leaving the house was too much. That has changed, I have appointments, but not until January and February. So just… waiting. Waiting on what? Good question.

I understand where you are coming from, at some point in life I too have experienced some of those frustrations. A great piece of advice someone gave me was you shouldn’t worry about things that are not in your control. Focus on the things in your immediate world.
Fret not, it will get better and you will be better for it!

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That has lasted me through the last few years. Times are just weird, I’m still young. Honestly? It’s not so much the world as it is my geographic location and it’s poor management. Hope that sums it up without politics, I do not object to the physical location just the people in it. I’ve seen people turn in on other friends of theirs or mine or both. Just… why? I don’t understand.

But. I have hurt someone myself, so why should I not understand? Such is life. Thank you for your time, perhaps getting the words out of my head at least alleviates it. I find myself talking a fair amount on here, to the point I worry either I’m using it as a crutch or over extending the willingness and understanding of you all. Part of that is my nervous nature I suppose. It both makes me chatty and then self conscious lol.

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Don’t worry we are all going through some Shi this year…you are just going through some more…than others. There is no reason 2 be embarrassed.
I decided at52 I has to make a major difference in my life and made a move to a new town and new job…sometimes you just need to make some changes
It was hard. Very hard. But now I’m so glad

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That is the crux of it; my issue mentally anyways is a development one in my estimation. As a child I didn’t learn a core dealing with reality skill or something. Something very hard to reconcile 10-20 years later.

I had a stressful environment as a child, as I grew I finally was able to speak up and express that. Since then my family has all put as much as we can into correcting it since. But I am not the only one who suffers difficulties in the family. So it’s a slow process. I do think it’s just my over-reaction to the world. I actually meant this topic to discuss kind of separate from that how to just sleep, but we can only help ourselves so much. At the end of the day I sleep how much a sleep, no one should lose sleep over it, not even me!

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So just… waiting. Waiting on what? Good question.

We are waiting on a lot of things too trying to stay in as much as possible to avoid this horrible virus the best we can. Dentists, doctors, shopping, visiting family, visiting with friends have all been put on hold.

It will get better if we can all just hang in there for a few more months! I try to stay optimistic but do sometimes also feel the weight of it all, and the worry it causes. Hang in there everyone. Things are going to get better.

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Its hard for people that dont have real insomnia to grasp the overall picture, reading your posts, I think i can relate, and wish i could tell you some good news,but I have not found the answer yet.

I just got back from a trip, while in the other state for some reason i slept great, makes me wonder if my house has a problem that i am sensitive to.

i micro dose all day to help with anxiety, that works…but a strain to knock me out isnt happening, have tried a number of recommendations , and still looking. I will try to remember this and let you know if i find something that works for me.

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@ChemicalDependant Chronic insomnia is one of the most over-looked health issues, mainly because so many things can be at the root of the issue. I suffer from it greatly. It looks like you have had some excellent advice so far in this thread, and it also seems you have already done quite a bit so far to try to help, with little help. I think you won’t find your answer in any one thing, such as a magical strain that will help you get back to a normal sleep cycle. I think it is more systemic and you need to make multiple changes in your life in order to kickstart your body in to a normal sleep cycle. I also know it’s easier said than done, because that is my solution as well and I am still working on it. Good luck!

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I think that really does sum it all up well, truly. A lack of sleep is devastating it our daily functioning and it all escalates. We as humans don’t understand ourselves well enough to do much more than offer personal experience.

Mental health is… tricky. It may be a completely unrealistic idea to expect all my symptoms to go away; certainly from one thing. I learned it takes trial and error… and you don’t always know what helps the good days. Slept in this morning, was miserable and not sleeping entirely but in and out. I feel like shit physically but my mind feels a bit more rested. What was different? Nothing really, lol.

I will say, for whatever it’s worth, I wake up in cold sweats often. There’s a delicate balance of blankets to keep me warm (I am so cold once I fall asleep) and allow air to deal with the sweat; otherwise I’m all wet and unhappy, not sleeping.

I have hyperhydrosis but my doctor won’t help. It’s anxiety he says. Well my anxiety isn‘t going away just because I have psychiatric treatment. You can’t just pass the buck my man. I’ll have some stronger words on the 9th when I see him. It’s a bit of a change of pace for me to act how I see as selfish, but it’s not selfish if it’s self preservation, eh?

Thank you all; if anything it at at least confirmed I’m not (completely) crazy.
It is hard to get a typical person to relate; but I’m ok with that. It means they never experience pure unreasonable fear or pain. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone!

I have… rough plans. Spend time off the web. I use it as a tool; but I abuse it to full time. Will do a dry January, at least deal with it with a clear mind. A lot of the things I do I start to rely on and burn myself out. Games, TV that sort of things. Distractions… but I also get real chatty when I open up. I’ve talked nonstop since opening topic; I think my family is getting a bit weary of it, lol. I am very compulsive, and I try to not be too hard on myself so you might see me in and out still; but I’ve been glued to my phone.

That’d what I recommend most; recenter yourself. Clear distractions, nurture yourself a bit. Allow recovery. Just not too long. I’ll be trying some of these things as well, it’s very much the things I have experience small comforts in… One concerning thing is my OCD becomes more apparent when I do try and cope. I find myself counting things so I don’t forget I did them, I can’t do dishes alone because I’ll never stop. So I’m honestly tempted to not push too hard, let it ride… however long it needs to.

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Yes at some point I realized being self critical was almost an end to itself…in other words self forgiveness can apply even to your lack of self forgiveness

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