Man I was on ssri 2 times in my life, while they numbed everything, I was an emotionless zombie, I know they help alot of people but they really messed me up and coming off them is hell. Brain zaps and all kinds of weird shit when all the emotions come flooding back.
I rather get a little to high and wrestle my thoughts than deal with that shit. But on a serious note, once I relised the paranoia from cannabis was just showing me my default mode, things got alot better.
Be careful with ssri’s