@DrGonzo13 , I’m very sorry. Your friend is no longer in pain. Hang in there. I’m really sorry.
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That’s spot on to the way that I’m already looking to and I am trying to think of a way to dedicate/ honor him and start learning about breeding and pollinating for creating a strain is his memory or something like that or I might dedicate the next grow in his honor and I am just trying to think of some ideas 
if you have any ideas or suggestions but I think that it’s definitely healthy to cry and grieve and not pent it all up inside yourself and my grandfather is a former marine who served in Korea and was a US Marshall afterwards and he’s not one to show emotion, to him and his era for a man to cry is weakness and I will be honest, he’s always very even keeled I don’t want to be a person who has to be “tough” and it’s just unhealthy in my opinion to not release or understand the fact that we’ve all got emotions and I hate it when people don’t like to admit that they cry so he’s just from a different time and I’ll be sure that I don’t let it consume me and I don’t mind st all for sharing with me thanks
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THANKS FOR THIS POEM! It’s very MEANINGFUL and is already printed out & on my fireplace mantle where HE’LL SOON BE RESTING.🥲
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Had I been chucking at the time I would have thought about this as well. I’d suggest looking for a “LONG” and leggy plant mixed in with a plant that has a terp profile that matches his personality 
I freak people out by being able to sob while doing functional tasks when there is no choice but to move forward. The emotional build is REAL, release it makes it possible for me to focus on what needs to be done. Only issue is that it’s hard to see properly…
This is why us crying and being open about it is actually scary to them. I think about how this era also expected their women to run the house and raise the kids with no consideration to them about their wishes and then mocking them for crying when it all becomes too much. I’m bi-polar 2; which is the functional (usually) bi-polar. If i don’t accept my emotions it’s a bad scene.
In the brilliant movie “Quigley Down Under”, there is a scene were a woman is trying to shush a child as dingos are closing in and the sound is leading them to the cave. This ties into the reason the character is “mad” as in her past she “shushed” her own child for similar reasons and smothered it to death. The moment the character relizes she is doing the SAME THING AGAIN, she stops and accepts the fact that the child MUST cry and she MUST act. So she starts yelling “Cry baby! Cry all your heart wants too!” as she grabs her gun and with NEW FOUND RESILIENCE she shots wildly and saves herself and the child.
Point of the story: It’s not just okay to cry. It WILL make you stronger for accepting the wave of emotion as a part of you and not something foreign. YOU WILL FIND YOUR RESILIENCE, it’s just a brutal climb to get to it but we’re all here for you. 
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I Will participate to your loss.Silence Is my favourite approach when those things happen.I keep silence as a kind of Respect and as a thoughtful state of mind,to always remember that we have to enjoy our beloved ones every Moment in Life,for Life Is unpredictable,then make the best out of every Moment in your Life.I bet you had a plethora of moments shared with your little beloved one,hold on those Memories and go on friend.Stay safe 
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Sorry for your loss…been there plenty of times and then some…but you are still young enough to get another doggie bromigo…
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My condolences friend! I was moved as someone who also has a mini dachshund. I gave Toby extra hugs this morning
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Sending lots of love. And peace and stillness for your heart. And if you’re having a hard time I suggest a good cardio session. I do this regularly when my depression gets to be a bit much. The endorphin release is great for easily slipping into a meditative state or just calming the mind 
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He’s catching the rabbits he always dreamed of chasing.
Much love, I’m sorry for your loss.
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Reads whole thread whipes away tear .
Common boy let’s go outside for a few
My condolences brother
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Lol it’s a hilarious thought because I would get demolished after that 
thanks for the positive feedback and yup…
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Sorry @DrGonzo13 and rip Ralph.
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RIP Ralph. Say woof to my old friend, Rufus, if you see him! Rufus was the same color as your dog. Ralph almost looks like a miniature Rufus.
I still get emotional when I think of my old friend. It was most definitely like losing a family member. peace
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This is heartbreaking <3 I wish there was something I could say to fix the hurt you must feel. Just know you’re not alone. I can see he had a great life with you. You did right by him.
RIP Ralph! Tell my Bud dog I say hellooo <3
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My condolences man. No words make it easier nor take away the pain, but knowing you gave him the best life he could have wanted, and companionship all the way thru should make ya smile a little. This, sadly, is the price we pay for their unconditional love and loyalty 
RIP Ralph…
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I am so sorry man. I miss my animals every day.
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I still can’t express the lost of our 12 yr old chocolate lab a few years back, I use to sleep in the back of my truck during cold dampy weather goose & duck hunting as well as upland bird… Funny how laying with a 90 pound dog can keep your body warm and go through nasty weather, ponds, mud etc to make you happy… the lease we can do is make them as comfortable as possible…
We were leaving wa state the next day her toung reversed down her throat and she was dyeing suffocating so at 5:45 at her vets we had a few minutes and she laid on the floor with me and my wife and she was fast a sleep. We paid $600 to have her ashes and she sits with us every day…
My Prayers are with you both and heaven won’t take bad doggies they only take good one’s …
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Wow I was just thinking about it when I was hunting in PA during duck season and my first dog was a 85lb solid muscle English springer spaniel and he literally had saved me from freezing my ass off in the back of my Subaru when I was 14 and he normally never slept on the bed with me and he crawled to me and pushed himself into my sleeping bag and then of course lol he’s ready to rock first ray of sun and I admit that he would have me pumped up and I really appreciate the words means a lot
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