That is very sad. I'm very, very sorry for your loss. I understand how you could look at her and think she was still young yet at 12.
I am still getting over my loss of Hyde. I looked at him and told myself he was still healthy because he had a healthy appetite. He was always watching me when I was in the kitchen. If I opened a cupboard or the frig, he'd pull himself up and go to the edge of the carpet where the living room and kitchen meet and lay down there, eyes constantly on me, in hopes a treat was coming, which frequently happened in his last 2 months.
My heart goes out to you and your family, especially your 9 y.o. daughter, since your beautiful, beloved dog was with her for her entire life.
No matter how bad it gets before it starts to get better, no you are not alone. Many of us sympathize with you.
My heart goes out to you and your family.
@Meesh, these words have had a profound effect on me. I am not ready yet, but I will get another dog when I am. It would feel selfish to not get another dog, when there are so many homeless one out there. I was thinking only of my painful loss, instead of thinking about how happy I could make a rescue dog. Thank you for that!
It also wouldn't be fair to Jackie to not get her a playmate. I'll get her a companion close to her age.
I've been haunted since I got Jackie by the memory of a 13 year old, female, golden retriever that was at the shelter. I wish I had taken that one home as well and given her a happy last year or two. I was also selfish at that time. I will not be so self absorbed the next time. If the shelter has a very old dog, I will bring that one home also.
Peace and love to all,