I 100% feel you had to take the tent down for the move and I’m only now hanging out with one woman human lol
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@LilJonB jonb you be over thinking this thread
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I tend to over think everything with too much emotion sometimes. Other times I don’t care about anything at all.
What can a guy do.
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Same here. Lol. I have missed seeing you around. @LilJonB . I think we should embrace it instead of being, I’m trying to think of the words. Maybe our parents made all these expiations. Pushed our brains to a place where that life is impossible for us to reach. What I’m saying is the house with a white picket fence the merge with all the kids ,race cars and money. Humm!!! I must’ve missed a page somewhere. I’m with you @LilJonB
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You’ll catch me floating around from time to time. But for personal reasons and work I can’t dedicate so much time to OG atm.
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I need to stop. Lol
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@LilJonB
Dude…what ever you do is ok. Come see us, when you can. DM me if you want. Its all good. Give yourself some grace and listen to some good ol rock ad roll.
Dance around and sing along even if you cant carry a tune. You will feel better. Peace.
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Don’t worry none of this is real anyway
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The World’s Fucked up like chewing gum
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Dude, truer words were never spoken. A good tune that gets my ass bouncing, or a great tune that I bounce to and sing out of tune with always lifts my spirits. If my walls could only talk, they’d tell you how bad a singer I am but I dont care.
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Man i wish i could be like here hit this.
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I have been suffering from severe depression for as long as I can remember. The can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t get out of bed, don’t care if I’m dead or alive kind. I have no idea what the words fun or happiness even mean.
I went through some serious trauma as a child and young adult and I still struggle daily just to function normally in society. I took antidepressants for several years when I was in my twenties. That was a disaster. I’ve now spent almost two decades trying to cope without medications. It’s a miracle I’m not dead or in jail. As others have said, getting really high and putting on good music is often the only way I can function. Love and light to those who are struggling with such. It’s not an easy battle. There is no silver bullet. All I can say is make an unwavering commitment to never give up. 
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at least I’m not the only sadist here.
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I thought it was funny. Everyone was losing their shit and my plants kept growing. I will admit i was super paranoid about dad getting it. We kept him out of the nursing home for 7 years battling alzheimers. Over my dead body was i gonna let the virus take him.
I didnt have a chance for emotions. Had to do what was necessary. It really didnt get bad until hospice came in and i had to start giving him meds. That shit nearly put me over the top. Monkey on my back and mixing adavan and oxycotin for sublingual doses.
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I’m sorry to hear that. I have been on meds. But not those. I’m sorry to hear that my friend. Was it from the server or afterwards?
I hate it. It’s something that people don’t understand. All my life I could have gotten paid. I haven’t been right my entire life. I would talk or even try and talk about stuff. The pushing away. I have started doing things a little different. The seed thing about got me. When your mental you what to win. Because the bottom is all we know. It’s hard to get out of a rut. A cut in the road. The crossroads, which way do I go. Do we stand and look to make sure that no one is coming, or do we hide is the bushes. Hum, I think we are the winners. Maybe everyone else is wrong. Every day should be a happy day. Brother you work a lot I do believe. I think you have a good heart. We have super powers. I’m telling you. We have a brain that’s smarter than everyone else. It’s the little things that let us down. Is for me. One Love
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You ever had a feeling like you want to throw up, but out of an organ that’s not your stomach?
Like… A heavy weight in your chest, and a nausea emanating from the center of your spine?
Cloudy days really seem to exacerbate it.
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I’ve been in a funk all year. I expected it would go away during summer but I almost don’t even remember summer. I’m not looking forward to winter especially, either.
I’ll be trying to extract good vibes from my plants. So far winter is still in the distance, unlike the last two years. We have another week of sunny, warm weather before it changes. I’m hoping I can get involved with something this year.
Keeping my head up and living in only one day at a time is helping me focus on what’s right in front of me. Some days still bite. Probably just my interpretation of events and projecting them into the future. I have to focus on living for today. peace
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Dude its almost like looking in a mirror reading that post except I’d have to throw in crippling anxiety as well. But otherwise its almost to the T(even the almost 2 decades off meds and finally trying to get in the right ones that work part).
Lately I been kinda all over the place, definitely little to no motivation most days, barely step outside the house, very withdrawn from those around me etc. And to make it better we had another covid exposure and wife was(is showing symptoms) and I’ve started showing some over past few day. So all 4 of us went to get tested today and are awaiting results.
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