Those are the side effects of gardening people and here’s another one…
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We built these beds a few weeks ago, you can “garden” outdoors in the winter too. It let’s you face the cold depression while asserting an active hope for springtime happiness.
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How did you bend those corrugated steel roof panels I am going to want something like that soon when I build a green house and some raised beds.
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We bought it that way, it was the wife’s birthday present to herself.i don’t know how you’d go about bending it… if you buy one shop around, prices were all over the place
You could use anything really…
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I just live with it. Try not to complain. Others have more to complain about. But your troubles are your troubles. I’ve just gone through life wearing masks so as not to alarm the others. I keep to myself. I like nature, and part of the sadness is having to watching it disappear around me. Life is change. I just have to accept that loss and dying is a part of the experience. It’s bigger than me. I just do my time and see what comes to be.
I have a long relationship with the herb. I have found several beneficial effects and a few negative effects. It helps lift my spirit with the right strain. Other times it helps by knocking thoughts down or helping me sleep. Thanks Mary. Loving you all. I hope more good stuff come a your way.
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I just went from the warmth and sun of the tropics to -12C and dark all the time. It’s weird. I can feel my mucus membranes crusting over and my skin flaking from the dryness. And I’m not sleeping again.
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Same here! I go on a cruise to tropics and I am a happy go getter. Trying new things and social.
Come back to the dark cold North and turn inside out.
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I had to put my dog to sleep in august. I got a new dog and I’m trying to be there for him but I’m still pretty sad. My friend had to put her dog to sleep and went to five vets, had xray and ultrasound and they never found anything wrong but her stopped eating and was hacking. She got two puppies. My parents are alive.
I disagree strongly with the armchair psychiatry of cold turkey from anti depressants. They are supposed to be tapered off.
Most people who take mental health meds, believe me if there was a way to manage without them, who would willingly want to take them? It took me a decade to get the right medication and doctor. He’s a boomer I pray he doesn’t retire.
But encouraging people to discontinue their medication is wrong, irresponsible advice.
I think my medication is working but I did something stupid the other day interacting with someone I got carried away.
My doctor said not to react to feelings. I don’t know how to do that. I’m reactionary.
Thinking about trying to grow plants outside in the spring. I have some sour apple bagseeds. It’s supposed to be sour diesel x c99. The weed it came from was good.
Try not to be depressed. I know it’s hard, smoking helps. Don’t drink.
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First, omg I love your name and avatar.
I friggin loved Chip n Dale as a kid.
Being autistic, nonverbal oral communication made more sense to me as a kid than trying to speak words.
Sorry about your doggo.
And welcome to the new doggo.
Being present after intensity is a process.
So, its ok. No shame.
And yeah, people practicing medicine without a license and training - not cool.
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Its been 5 months but im finally swinging back to the sunshine.
I started Provigil
Its an anti-narcoleptic that Israel created in the 1959s for their fighter pilots to be able to fly 24-36hrs without having the mental fuzziness of an amphetamine.
I was so close to going back on Adderall after 15yrs off of it, but finally got my new Dr to find my old sleep study and get me the provigil.
It doesnt give me the umph to get shit done like adderall, but i also dont get the tweaker bs from adderall. So its a happy medium that i prefer.
I also did a few small mushroom trips, gotta do a big one soon.
And, day length is expanding so thats got me amped up too.
Yay.
Hang in there, surf the wave 
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I’m all for getting into nature, or of course the garden when nature is a tad too frigid lol. But even then, a very cold day I look at as “crisp” or “fresh”. The sunshine (vit d) and fresh air can do wonders.
Alot of people use meditation and breathwork. I use a little breathing trick if I’m feeling anxiety. It seems to help. Also, if you can pin point what’s causing the depression, sometimes you can work yourself out of it.
Changing your diet or adding in things you might be deficient in and cutting out processed foods. Supplements help when you cant get it in your diet.
And of course I believe in the use of psychedelics. I use psilocybin as a mental reset at times. No heroic doses for me though, I’ve got history with that I dont intend to revisit. I know my limit and what helps me. MDMA is wonderful as well. The war on drugs sure is a shame, I have alot of interest in phenethylamines and tryptamines and it would have been interesting to try a few things.
Now, not all of these things are recommended for all individuals. I would do alot of research and tread very lightly if one were on an ssri or other medication and was considering other chemicals. A great deal of harm can be done.
To anyone who is experiencing depression or any other mental health problems that may be reading this but hasn’t spoken up before, don’t hesitate to reach out to those around you or seek professional help. Seriously. There are alot of resources available. Explore different avenues until you find what works for you. Take baby steps if needed. But don’t suffer in silence, you’re not alone.
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Growing weed saved my life. True story. No drama.
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Preach it! Thanks for the perspective Stay strong. Believe in goodness. Believe in love.
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Check prices now. It’s been the way you describe for awhile, but I understand prices of GPUs are going down and availability is up.
Almost time to replace my 1080ti…
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Everyone dances with their shadows…
Everyone has their personal brand of suffering…
There is an art to Letting Go…
recommending the Sedona Method, if you are looking to explore the Self and let go of the baggage…
DM me if interested - I have books, videos, workshops that can be shared
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me smh I hate this shit
Or maybe I’m just stressed idk
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I’m depressed its not June and doing my outdoor.
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all my life. gets darker near the end, or what seems to be the end.
regards,
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I think I am
This slow shtf is wearing me down.
I knew it would be like this
Prepared but it’s just nagging
Me
My job is shit, 26 hours a week if I’m lucky.
My car is bleeding water
Again after 600 buck repair last winter.
I’m tired a lot, more than usual.
Can’t get motivated for shit
Can’t see a future anymore
Just hanging on.
My Lyme is wearing me down.
Plus I hate winter with a passion.
Sick of everything and that’s not me.
But hopefully this will pass as it warms.up
Winters always a bitch for painters anyway.
I did buy a van, thankfully I have another horse to mount , maybe spring pick up , and shit be better.
I feel like I’m existing
Not living
Haven’t been able to buy preps in months.
Shit keeps getting worse
Over there in bear country
Ahh I shut the Fook up
No one likes whining
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i’ve been selectively using this meme since friday, 13 feb 2015.
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