IDC if it stays. My point being I'm not ashamed of who I am or working at my own pace to stay sane. Some of us have problems and have no proper way of staying calm or in control of their emotions for various reasons. Weed helps, but nothing is perfect especially when personally attacked.
Not many strains can screw my head on straight. Only a few times in my life have I been in full control of my emotions and mind. Each time it happens I'm able to discover why I act a certain way or a method that helps me with a disorder I have.
So far my only hint is CBD helps mildly, but it's not enough to treat everything. THC treats my psychosis and memory loss, but not much else. CBG helps my back and joints mainly. CBC helps THC to treat my mind and body while not sacrificing the antipsychotic side of THC I experience.
Last year I made gummies with all of them in it and it was still missing something. With my recent experience with straight CBN I've learned that it's better than THC at being an antipsychotic and the effects I feel with THC for my mind are likely small amounts of CBN helping psychosis.
One day I'll find my perfect strain and finally have a grasp of sanity. Until then I do apologise for anything I may do that breaks the rules or directly offends anyone. in general I treat others with the respect they treat me with. I start off nice and match the energy being directed at me. Always been that way and it's how I react to things unfortunately. I made plenty of enemies and a good amount of friends who accept me for how I am and while supportive aren't afraid to smack me in the back of the head when I'm being stupid and I should know better. Some of my good friends used to be enemies who I managed to work things out with. Life is funny that way. I'll get mad one day and about 5 minutes later I'll have already forgotten it unless it's repeatedly shoved in my face.
I'm not letting myself get that stressed to the point where I lose control over myself again. I don't have the 10g bud a day to stay sane through all my problems at once rn, so I work slowly to stay alive and sane. As a bonus my issues slowly decrease and my need to medicate as much also decrease with it.
Anyways I've said my peace and kept it as in the rules as possible. Lucky 7s turns out to have a profile that looks very promising for medicating my issues without the need for sedation. Zkittlez was the last strain I smoked that had a what I consider perfect profile. Other than the taste it didn't make me feel like I was having to hold myself back constantly just to not get locked up in a asylum. I was able to let go and relax fully for a glorious 3 hours before the effects lessened over the next hour. I'm really hoping that Zelda or Midna offer something similar, but I'll be realistic and hope for at least a break from my psychosis problems. It's a collection of things that aren't worth going into here.
With how fast Midna grew in 21 days I'm excited to see the lucky 7s as they're already ahead of Midna's pace at that age.
Assuming the day to flip is still March 10th they may not yield a lot, but should give enough to make me happy. I can buy more seeds if lucky 7 works with my body and brain chemistry as well as it reads like it will.