104 in the house?! You weren’t kidding! WTF! You gotta get out of there. Can it be fixed or do you have to move? It will be 104 here today but not in the house! OMG.
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How do these prices compare? Thanks bro!
Blessings
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IHF has better prices and more variety plus flower their tinctures at IHF are ~15 cheaper isolates are way cheaper also
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Thanks I’ll check them out. Gotta link?
Blessings…
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Post 394 will get ya there !
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I found that I became mentally unstable only when my basic needs weren’t being met, food water shelter
trying to score herb like that creates problems and situations where you wouldn’t have been otherwise.
Getting ‘caught up in the mix’ I guess.
Legalization and medical status helped keep me away from that but also feels kinda like a hollow victory, after all that shit I went through now get jars of diamond sauce delivered, drop fat globs on an enail
Something something lost in translation. Glad I started growing.
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It wasn’t easy, but I finally accepted there’s nothing I can do to change my mind, but instead I have to open it. Currently a split of 3 in here. really rocked my world finding out why.
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Man, that does sound rough! I’m in the shithole state of Texas. Those diamonds are a felony here. Count your blessings my brother.
Blessings…
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I like D&S, but I can’t really find it readily available either. too many people passing off sugared up wax with added terps as diamonds and sauce in my area. hopefully soon it’ll be the new norm.
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I think I got some of that recently. There was something wrong with it. I got it locally and I usually go to Austin. Should have known better. Just shows to go ya!
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This thread…is a maze of suffering and healing. Its sobering and empowering at the same time.
I could find words for each of you…whisper words of wisdom. But I’ll let it be for now.
Ive lost my only child as an infant about a year before I joined the world renowned Overgrow.com…
I blamed myself and others. I was inconsolable. And still am to a point. But I didnt go back to drugs and didnt have the desire to either.
But having a blood infection once or twice a month for 2 years is depressing and painful. Many of the problems I have read here i have experienced and succeeded with recovery.
But I relapsed and went through a few 8balls last month. And it was a reminder of the person I used to be 10 years ago. And it really put things into prospective in a kind of a way.
Ive changed in a way… And in a way I am exactly the same as i have always been. Some things seem to never change. Sex, drugs and rock n roll will always be available. Life is short for some and for others it never seems to end. But there are certain things in life you must make time for. Mental health should be a priority for every living soul. The plans you made for yourself when you were younger change as you change. But never forget who you wanted to be. I never wanted to be 35. But I am rapidly approaching the mark. And nothing that I saw myself doing actually materialized except for one thing: growing copious amounts of marijuana
Not an easy task…
But I made my dreams into reality…to escape the reality of the real problems of my life.
Time for the other dreams I had to materialize into reality. Even the ones that were stolen away from me. Never give up.
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I noticed once I tasted the terps I’m familiar with at a local shop. They didn’t even try to order decent terps. It was the straight up hemp thin mints terpenes from Witch Dr. I used them myself for awhile to add something extra to my dabs. Then I stopped buying them only to find them on the products I spent a good amount extra on just to get scammed. LoL though fortunately that idiot cuffed me it. He’s not seeing that cash.
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Honestly I can’t even express how sad I am for you!
I’ve almost lost my entire family growing up. all I can say is don’t let yourself go numb. It won’t go well in the future. As a teenager I lost 4 grandparents in 4 years. all extremely close to me. It broke me. I shut my emotions away and unfortunately it left my passion in general dead. I’ve lost a lot of family since and I haven’t been able to feel really that sad for many of them. I was close to all of them. When my great grandma died last year I was shocked I couldn’t cry. All memories of her suddenly went blank. I couldn’t remember anything at her wake or funeral to even mourne properly. keep the memories you enjoyed intact. It does eventually hurt less, but it’s better to feel the pain than to go numb to it forever. My grandpa passed earlier this year and I couldn’t even get myself to feel sad until a bit ago. That hurt me more than anything as he was my favorite person in the world. He was still fun to chill with even in his 70s. He was never boring and always had some fun story about his past to share. We’d just talk for hours. That’s something I never had with anyone else other than my partner and best friends growing up. I had wished he could have been the first person I told about my trip message when it became clear. He wanted to be the first when he found out I had one and he even told me how to listen better. I’ll miss him forever and I truly wish I could have told him what it was when I found out.
I definitely understand grief. More than I’d like to, but all I can say is just try not to go dead to the emotional response of the memories. Try to find a way to remember them without stress.
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Oni. Thank you for you kind support.
I am happy for your progress too. Stay healthy and good luck with your sore mouth. Again i know that pain all too well. And your right about the ear drainage being effected by the infection.
We all know what’s wrong with us. That’s whats so fucked up about bad mental health.
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Actually I finally got health insurance that covers dental. I had those teeth pulled finally 
along with a decent amount of jawbone that rotted. I’m working on getting dentures or something soon. I miss chewing food with molars. I found that when I explained that it’s a constant back and forth with antibiotics for the infection to be able to pull the tooth never ending they finally pulled out the 2 molars. at least I can eat without pain again. It’s been very useful for gaining weight again. I’m finally at a size 26-28 waistline 
I was at a 22-24 waistline for way too long.
After discovering I’m non-binary it also became significantly easier to function. No more fog brain from “Evil thoughts begone!” Moments. I’ve accepted that I’m not 100% how I look and was born. I prefer to go androgynous vs female, but that’s what I prefer as I’m not fully female either.
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I can remember tripping on mushrooms in the hospital seeing my grandmother in pain dieing from cancer. And I can remember her telling me that her leg hurts and she asked if I would rub it for her. I said of course and did as she asked. And it was like grinding bones to make bread. And I kept asking her if it was feeling better. And she kept telling me no.
And I just continued to rub what seemed to be a bone…tripping balls. Then came the cocaine binges during her last days. Watching her in hospice slowly breathing her last few days of breath. I can remember when the shock finally faded and the grief hit hard. And Again I blamed my self and others even though I knew she was doomed to die from cancer. She refused to consume cannabis during her treatments just sat on the couch watching the food channel all day - not eating. Visiting nurses wouldnt come in because she was unable to answer the door at times. Lots of bad things. Sorry to hear about your grandparents.
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At least I have 1 left. My family usually has kids early, so I had a decent amount of family to watch pass. It was unfortunately easier to watch my father’s side of the family pass as they all overdosed. All except for my cousin. I was close with him and saw him just a few days earlier before he relapsed. He had a kid on the way that was born a little before his funeral. We all thought he learned his lesson when he became mentally challenged after too many overdoses. The same brother who hated his guts and even has it forever written down in his self help books how much he hated him even came to the funeral to mourne. Only their other brother actually spoke though. That was so far the only funeral to date I’ve spoken at. I’ll miss Dom.
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I feel that with the grandma too. My great grandma when she fell I had actually passed her house and thought about visiting her. I decided not to assuming my uncle was going there as usual. I’ll never stop regretting not going in that day. There’s nothing I can do now about it, but it doesn’t stop the pain of knowing I could have helped.
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Unfortunately I have sensitive fish for a zodiac sign. Numb isnt possible. I feel more then I should. Sorry for you losses. Gotta watch some Gilligan Island before bed for mental stability. I’ll check ya later Oni. Good talking with you.
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Good talking with you as well. Enjoy the reset. I’m cancer. I have no idea what that means for zodiac.
Mentally if I let every loss get me down I would never function. Too many people pass daily. The best I can do is remember them and do right by them. In a sense my grandfather’s passing actually helped my proposal go off without a hitch. They thought I wanted just a break from home to escape and go back to Gloucester for a bit to enjoy the ocean. That too, but they wanted it to be a surprise and it was as I decided that moment to stop moping about and do something about my life.
Btw they stayed lazy and we took over LoL 
he served his purpose, but after drowning in the fishbowl it’s good to be back to myself again. The memories of a extra long acid trip over 3 days is nice. Lots of pretty colors. Too bad he wouldn’t clean or there’d be 4 of us up here 
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