It’s a bit like those poems you write in Highschool and laugh at later. But it’s the only way I can ever express that feeling. I can never find those right words to help a friend in need- but in that moment waiting in the rain I felt the words. I wouldn’t claim any enlightenment, lol, but if it resonates with you I won’t argue; welcome to the rain my friend. Come dry yourself off.
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Interesting! I ama breast cancer survivor. I guess I’ll add b17 to my daily meds and supplements…can’t hurt!
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If you use nutritional yeast it gives you all the B vits, in only a teaspoon full and it’s cheaper than buying tablets that maybe synthetic B vits, and not as good.
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Don’t feel like this too often but today feel like heading to portwood roundabout and seeing if I can meet my mate Connor beyond the tarmac 
and only took 30 years to see why my grandad shot himself. Women. (Clarified when I read his note)
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Appreciate that brother. And would have fully agreed whilst I had my boy around. My ex is doing everything in her power to make that not be the case though and tbh. I feel she got a point.
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I could talk about mental health all day. Talking about it is what fights the stigma. Fighting the stigma is 50% of the solution towards getting better. I’m in. Peace.
That’s why I started the thread
For the same belief system. You might not know cos you seem relatively new to the OG I knew. But I’m autistic anyway. Which makes understanding shit stupid difficult. Then get thrown curve balls like this shit and it makes me fully think what is the actual point
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I have severe combined type ADHD. Diagnosed and treated as of 3 years ago. I’m 53. I’m with you dude. I have a tendency to completely miss the obvious and curve balls are so common in my life they might as well be wiffle balls my friend. 
Mild adult Asperger’s. Also diagnosed but there’s no treatment. It’s a suck it and see situation here. You’re 23 years my senior. And I’m glad you got it under control brother. I thought I did. Actually had a couple really good years. (After my son was born and I came to terms with losing my brother) I definitely miss the obvious usually but I’ve been dissecting this situation since April and really can’t see any way forward
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Do you have a therapist? Someone to bounce things off of regular like every week or every other week. I went through several to find the one I see now every other week. I am a firm believer that improving my mental health took daily work just like caring for my plants. Eating right, exercise. Working with a therapist and utilizing a treatment plan for physical and mental challenges. Do you own a pet? Your plants surely help. Do you Fish? Hobbies for me are movements towards getting out of the demoralizing self-absorption that being sick causes. The Pandemic increased all of this for everyone. Get Up, Get Out and Do something for someone else. In turn this helps me get out of my head and dead space. Peace man.
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No therapist. No medication. I don’t even have a doctor I can go see as it stands. I’ve not had any plants running for a good while. The BDxCK are the next one’s meant to be up and I agree it dies usually help. I definitely eat well. And I do enough physical labour to constitute exercise. I used to fish a lot. And no pet at the moment. 2 owls coming on Tuesday though. I did have a German shepherd but he’s sadly passed now.
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I would start with something simple like this thread. Maybe make a note, like this thread could be your note. Baby steps remember Bill Murry in “what about bob”
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I actually started this thread bro 
as a kinda note. I never heard of what about bob though ngl
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Dude, I’m sorry, I know that low pointless feeling so well. Please, for me as a favor, go on a quick walk or something outside, smell the air, take a deep breath. I know you can’t see through that fog of despair, but you got this. You are a warrior. Small victories are going to be the only way through it, even if it’s just brushing your teeth, say out loud “I did that,” and be grateful to yourself. Banish those demons by saying that shit out loud.
I know these are all just words, and I’ve never met you, but you aren’t alone, no matter what your demon says.
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Your already doing baby steps bro. Just make a conscious list of those steps and keep baby stepping. Doctor, therapist, medication, maybe another dog when you’re ready. Today the thread is a step. Sharing your thoughts also a step. Caring about others here is definitely a step Props to you for this Thread. It’s already helping my mental health. Peace.
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Bro. I hate it. Spent so much of my life trying to do good shit. So good shit happens. But no matter what i do. Bad Shit still happens. For an English man I got nice teeth but I haven’t even brushed them today. It’s a blanket. Sofa and Netflix day. I wanted to go out but I just can’t. Probably sounds stupid. I’ve got a lot of friends on OG I have never met in person. And quite a few I trust more than the ones I’ve known a lifetime.
@ColeLennon appreciate that bro. I don’t really do big pharma meds though. I’m trying to get thoughts in order but it’s just not happening. (Like 3+ months of trying) I’d love another dog if I could afford one even the owls are gonna leave me broke but I’m hoping something to focus on helps if that makes any sense. I’ll happily go hungry to try keep the mind occupied. I’m glad its helping you too bro. Least that’s one thing I got right init
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Give yourself a break today. You deserve ONE!!!
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I’m gonna try and see if sleep helps at all bro
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