re: panic/anxiety attacks
My first one sent me to the ER...felt like the onset of hallucinogens, tasted metal, etc. etc. ... I thought I was possibly having a stroke or heart attack & called my lil sister who was in the middle of finals because I was afraid to drive there.
After all the equipment scanning & dr'ing BS the dude (this is CA, yeah, Dr Dude) said my heart looked OK(really? fucker never cut me open ) and asked if i'd been under a lot of stress. I chuckled & smiled, had begun feeling normal.
So the things that jumped out ot me from my Wikipedia'ing were:
- first time is often worst for many people; it can form a "feedback loop"
- excess CO2 in lungs --> brain thinks you're drowning == panic attack
- often exp'd by people whose parents "expressed an overly cautions view of the world/life" yeah no sherlock .
At the time that episode occurred I had been washing dishes, singing along to the wailers, thinking about the deathspawn ex-GF, and probably had too many cigarrettes back-to-back, and some strong weed too.
'...oh mockingbird, have you ever heard, words that i never heard...'
And since that time, about a decade, I have never had one as severe but have likey prevented them through self-awareness & the Gen'lzd AD is what I was labeled as too. I say it's COPD + OCD + PTSD + spinalcord dmg + bad habits.
here's to good livin'